Haha hi ppl im bac after the recent comman test i tink i really deserve a break frm studies and try to relax myself before school starts again.....well yday i wen to teach tution for two hours n met my anna( god bro) n anni ( sis-in-law) n kumar for a movie which is alvin n the chipmunks it was damn funny actually my god bro didnt wan to watch it at all cos he tot it was dumb but guess who was laughing all the way monkey bro haha n kumar was sleepin wen the movie was on haha poor boy was damn tired ah ......after the movie had to get bac hm haiz thxs kumar for sending me hm.......hehe....oh ya to those who hv nt watch tis movie die die mus watch ok

Haiz tis week veri tired n exhausted sial......so many test so many things to do ....haiz thxs to peiyi vanessa limin faekah liza fatin kumar kamal n vani n my sis for being there for me without u guys i don noe hw i would be like thxs luv u guys alot.........

Oh ya here are some pics which shuld hv been uploaded long time bac..... here they are:

ok ok ppl here is my latest update after so long....haha k mango here it is .....hope u are happy ah hehehe....

K have not been updating my blog fo ra long time cos was damn bz wit proposal project reports work ......haiz damn exhausted man.....i don even hv time for myself at all nor for my family....Well wdp proposal was the toughest of all.....had to design site structure and stuff wow i remembered i had to redo some tough cos i made mistake .......i remembered i and liza doin the project at our own homes from afternoon till next morning 3am ( if you are asking hw tat was possible for me n her to do our projects together duh msn online ) next morning we start on osm......haiz........following monday was my first day to teach tution...and i was kinda nervous...cos

a) i don noe hw to go to the place cos its at woodlands

b) i wonder wat impression the student and their parents will hv on me

and i ended up getting lost in woodlands.... n ended goin places familiar to me....wen my god father place near karthik aka Aj house....haha....thank god the monkey was at camp if nt mati mus ans many question....hehe...eventually i took a cab n wen there......n it was as bad as i tot....hehe

tuesday had ec test i tried to study it n memorize it well was damn hard ...... damn there was tis question step 3 was damn hard....but guess wat i wrote the ans n erase it haha...smart rite...wen at last.....the lecturer gave the answer....i was so frustrated....waaaaaaaaaaa

wednesday so called off day....but wen to teach tution n wen to my aunt hs on thurs to c her as she wen for surgery .....hehe n was jokin around wit my cuz n uncle ...wish my kutty bro saravanan was there ....miss ya bro......wen home n kamal annah vani n kumar called my hp n tok to me till 2.30 am....kumar n kamal.....were teasing me the whole time... haha....n tell ghost story tink abt it ah ....i sitting in the dark .....n hearing tis scary sial after tat cant sleep kumar kept me company.....till i slept .....haha but i got a shock n got up cos my hp vibrate damn was scared out of my life.......

haha....yday was doin CS2.....till 12.30.....was damn stressed haiz......now tat the project is over....im glad but i still got a few more to do but i can do it .......

Fatin sry if i showed my anger at u today ....was not in a gd mood.....

Thanks to fatin faekah liza priya karthik aka AJ kamal vani n kumar

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL.....

Well, on the eve of deepavali was doing alot of hs work cleaning up trying help mum n granma....
around 11pm murugan came to my plcae to giv me deepavali card n was watchin the variety show till 12.30pm n left i wen to lite up the oil lamps which i always do......

The day of deepavali got up dressed n prayed n waited for my friens to come karthik aka AJ, weiye ,jingyuan, faekah , fatin , liza and zack.....had fun haha......was jokin around n tokin wit all of them....after so long i saw karthik n had a great tok wit him.......But miss my sis she couldnt make due to her cuz being in hospital...hey jessica akka i pray u will get well soon....

Nw am kinda tired n exhausted.....well tmr bac to sch n bac to hit the books back to stress land haha.......

Luv my friens alot...thxs guys

Luv my friens alot

HI all......so long since i update my blog....haha k la fatin today saya update ok.....well starting od the day was kinda depressing for me trying to figure out why vpc don wan to work in my pc....guess wat mine is windows vista home edition tats y it doesnt work....aiyo...bad luck....oh ya nw to the interesting part of the story .....uhm nt exactly story la but wat exactly happen....fatin came to sch today kind of late .....reason he shoe was torn....n she couldnt walk trust me i noe....n i saw ......n we had class till 8.30pm.....i mean imagine her walking wit a torn shoe....damn tat sucks.....so i told her there is two ways one we wait for the 6pm break n go out of sch to buy slipper to wear or go nw as at 12+ eventhough gt class @ 1pm.......n i also told if goin to buy can go hougang point n i could go hm n leave my laptop at hm....eventually we wen on our first break took a cab i drop her at hg point while i wen hm to drop my sweet laptop (luv ya alot)....haha....mum was shock to see me....ask me to makan ....i said no gt to go late for sch astala vista baby hehe....in ur dreams i said like tat....anyway met fatin bac @ hg point...n we had to wait for a cab for abt 10mins i tink at last a taxi came the taxi kind of a new model pretty posh la felt like we are rich riding in it hehe....wen we entered class the teacher ask fatin hw did u manage to change ur slippers...imagine the shock on our faces....eventually dearest faekah told teacher wat happ so tat he wont misunderstand tats so sweet of her...oh ya muz also ask fatin haha.....rest no need to say la.....imagine ok....haha....well OSM project i n liza did well we tot it was tough ok la but nxt week we have to do again i hope we can do it.....god pls be wit us.....


I wonder y u leave me tis way

why u make me cry

why the memories i had wit u hurts me nw

why do i wan u around wen i noe it will neva happen

why why why

i really am trying to hate you

but i cant seem to do it

cos u are my one n only one

in my heart

nw and forever.........

Wow after so long i am updating my blog damn bz wit deepavali preparation and school am damn exhausted and stressed up....will tis ever end im trying to finish up my project stuff before deepavali so tat i wont hv to worry abt it.......

Am glad tat i hv good friens wit me at my side luv u guys alot.....


Since you left me, i felt at a loss.....

felt that there is no point in living but i was wrg

Since you left me, i hv a shoulder to lean on

a shoulder to cry

a life to live, goals to achieve,

yes i hv my dearest friens wit me

and i luv them more then you nw

Wow damn tired sial.....sch was ok nt so much subjects today but was kinda stressed wit two of my modules OSM n IS haiz veri tough the project but im gonna do my best n work hard for the project....n study damn hard for all my modules....jia you rajes haha....

Sch was ok had fun wit my besties faekah fatin n liza ....cant wait to go out wit them nxt wed oh ya fatin beta help me wit wat to wear haha u veri particular wat wit colours haha....

One part of me is kinda lonely one part of me is strong......wishing for a certain thing to be in my life n brighten it up i hope it cums soon...cos im really in need of one jus abt nw.....

Sry ppl hav nt been updating my blog....cos my internet was dwn.....k nw for some updates in my life....haha k tis is damn hilarious haha....n dwn wit flu jus my luck to hv it nw damn u.....

To begin jus started my new term in sch kinda stress wit the projects it seems like we have to complete in a rush n best part deepavali is on its way....damn hw am i gonna handle it....god pls be there for me........oh ya was happy to c my friens n classmates after a long time...lots of changes in us all for the best ......oni one person neva change danial n his hugs n kisses....ewwwww...yucks...haha...jus jokin monkey.....hehe......


K deepavali preparation well goin smooth la, wen shoppin yday bought sum stuff but need to buy summore stuff nxt week....haiz i so exhausted ......need my 8hours of sleep man.....

ok nt much to say for nw stay tune to the nxt update haha ok lame i noe haha....k adios

Hey ppl jus got bac frm chalet had alot of fun there.....was playin games wen for a walk @ the beach, tok wit priya's cuzzins her aunts n was playin wit jerusha,esther,aaron n desilva....oh ya we were also tellin ghost story damn spooky till we had to go in group to our rm to sleep haha....but overall had fun......well school is gona reopen on monday wow im still in holiday mood...haiz...i hope tis term wont be tat stressful n wont be tat hard....and im gonna wk damn hard tis term im gonna achieve my dream...i noe i can do it n no one is gonna stop n i mean no one....anyway thxs to faekah liza fatin raj n my dearest sis for being there for me always....


New life new start....wateva it is...i can do it i can make it...i hv god wit me my family n my friens.....n im happy wit it

SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENS

Today, i had alot of work to do met faekah around 11.45am at yck mrt to go to school to buy books...as we were walkin towards school we were wondering whether the books were cheap n whether it will be crowded....we were expecting the books to be 30 plus but guess wat it was 40 plus imagine the shock we had.....haiz damn it so ex .....then after tat we wanted to go bowling but then faekah decided to go hougang mall n look around so we did n guess wat my bag tore great jus wat i need luckily we were near hougang mall so faekah brought me to minitoons to buy a bag n i also got a handphone strap faekah bought for herself a hairband veri nice on her......

k faekah im updating my blog again....for u gal....haha...k after aumtime im updating my blog n starting my life anew....wit alot of goals.....in my mind...after a few mishaps....i want to progress in life.....

my new goals are:

1) To achieve in my studies

2) To pass my driving

3) Do a course in ccna


Well tats abt it , if i got other goals then i will add it to my blog.....oh ya abt the ccna course well tat im nt sure if i wan do it....well hv to go for briefing on mon and c wat they hv to offer........
Thxs to my sis, faekah,fatin and raj for being there for me thxs guys....

Well....tis days seems like everyone is losing their inspiration to write....cos theres noting new happening in their life ......and there doesnt seem to be anything interesting to write...life is jus goin the same no difference...haiz wat a bore...well i hope wen sch start...there will be sumthing interesting to write......sumting which will be happening haha...well till then if sumthing happen....then i will write....adios

i don wanna move a way frm u

i don wan anyone to break us apart

i don wanna leave u

as u are mine......as u are a part of me

no matter wat u are still in my heart

no matter hw far i am.....im always there for you

even if im alive or dead....

Yahooo i passed i passed i passed yes ar.....haha im so happy my besties also pass im glad i will be wit them again yahoo.......

Thxs to my besties for being there n helping me wit my studies

Thxs to my sis for boosting my confidence

Thxs to loosu of being there for me

Thxs to all the gods who answered my prayers


Luv ya all....n congrats to my classmate for doin well for their exam

ok yday wen to parkway parade.....actually to follow fatin for training cos :

a) she doesnt noe where the hell parkway parade was

b) doesnt noe how to go bac to her wkplace

Best part liza came dwn after fatin called her n both of us were waiting for her for 2 hours ( fatin u owe us ah u gila nenek)we were sitting near a baby salon where baby aka rich babys go for hair cut.....haha well most of them cried wen their hair was cut...but after tat they are all smiles jus like the salon slogan says....frm tears to cheers.....haha....so cute....

later i followed fatin to dhoby ghaut n both of us took the train which was packed like a sardine can....fatin drop at novena lucky her n i dropped at yck.......damn .....haha suppose to meet lossu today to bad his nt well having fever hope u get well soon....

Im really worried abt my exam results cos the papers projects tis term was damn tough....well my sis lossu n friens encouraging me but still there is a part where u are nervous....well gd luck to everyone.....

Oh ya to my close frien karthik aka AJ gd luck for ur interview for the navy im sure u will get in

Hi Guys! I'm bac from genting had a great time there wit my cuzzins haha....we went on all the rides well actually most of it haha cos some of it was scary ......the one one i enjoyed most was go kart haha i was afraid cos,

• i don noe how to drive
  
• scared tat i will hit onto sumting

But after getting on the car so called car la haha ....i started the engine and went off beating everyone haha......i was first all the driving like as if i had experience sial....haha well at least i noe i can drive now....maybe i can go n take a licence without any fear lets see how it goes...i guess it does run in the blood...my granma drived mum was learnin to drive haha wow.... ok bac to genting we all had fun playin games n the person who was lossing in the games were lokesh n jonathan two naughty kids one 19 n the other 11 haha....

Here are the pics we took :

Mummy and me at the genting theme park

The whole group who wen for the daring rides

London bus in genting haha

Clare joycelyn n mukesh ( thinks his gd looking wateva la hehe)

Jonathan and Saravanan

mukesh clare and joycelyn on the bravest trip of their life hehe

hanging in mid air

Cuming down the escalator

Cheers we jus had lunch at a spectacular restaurant KFC hehe

Me and joycelyn hey who is the person who put the tissue there

wow a small head which is the size of a palm

two clowns hahaHip hop star wannabe

PS: I did hit into another car but he deserve it the oni witness to tat was mukesh hehe....shhhhhhhh hehe

ok tis few days was kinda bored....n was packing to go gentin wit mummy my aunts n cuzzies weeee hehe...cant wait....miss my friens,my sis, and my lossu haha.....haiz n miss sch alot tis days y is it tat wen we are in sch we cant wait for holidays and wen we are on holidays we cant wait for sch to reopen haiz i guess theres no answer to tat huh......well tats abt it today.....will update more on sat okays adios....

Really boring tis days......miss sch and my friens haiz and missing a certain person tis days....and he doesnt msg me properly so bz tis days and tis loosu complains tat i don tok to him and msg him properly haha monkey look who is tokin haiz but still miss tat certain person haiz.....
Oh ya i will be goin to genting from the 6th to 10th September...so anything jus tag me here of jus email thxs guys ......

Wow wat a tiring day am exhausted today me faekah liza and fatin wen to east coast park....to surprise fatin cos its her bday......haha we reach there around 5+......and was playin uno hahaha....fatin was the first to end the game followed by liza...but me and faekah was battling on sial...haha till 6.30..believe it....in the end i lost haha.....we tot the game will neva end....eventually it did....hehe......then we were waiting for the two she's to cum haha actually its syukri and satish la ...but tis nenek aka fatin was so capo keep asking tat i had to change their gender....haha we surprise her wit a cake and pizza was damn full haha...oh ya except for me everyone a cake the sixe of their palm believe it haha obviously no one could finish it,.....then me liza and faekah left the bday gal wit syukri n satish n wen hm exhausted.....haiz wat a day.....


Happy Birthday Fatin!!!

Ok today didnt do anything much actually......wen for a doc appt ya i noe as usual....haha....came hm had lunch then wen online check email.....was damn bored sial.....so i play game wit sis...on my webcam n chat wit my sis.......stupid sial loosu neva call idiot i tot he sleepin at last he sms at 7pm n woke me up idiot.....he was painting the whole hs today hehe.....loosu best nt to noe wat i scold u hehe.....oh ya few more hours to my bestie fatins bday.....weeee....haha miss my friens alot haiz

Atlast exams are over yahoo!!!!...........well today paper suck to core cos it was damn difficult everyone look at the paper and after tat look up and stare at it blankly .....cos no one has any idea wat the hell the paper it is tokin abt haha.....i jus hope i pass tats all i wan rite nw...........haiz...well after tat wen out wit a frien of mine to yishun...and we saw puppies for sale eek they are so cute and adorable.....awww.....n we also saw baby hamsters birds rabbits and we walk pass a pet groomer there was tis dog who was barkin he was cute ....my frien said soon he gonna hv a hair cut .....so i said to the dog hey bodoh cut ur barking or u gonna hv a disasterous hair style soon...n guess wat it stop barking haha amazing hehe.....well nxt week goin to genting wit my cuzins and aunty n mummy haha...yeah cant wait for it...time for some R and R.......rest and relax.....weee....sat goin out wit sis for shoppin weee...its gonna be fun.....weee....haha...

Alrite....today was OOAD exam aka dooms day....ok first things first i did study ok like damn hard for tis paper.....till 4 am n suffered gastric which is normal wenim stressed ......n guess wat is the paper simple no its nt simple its damn freaking hard most of my time i was drawing the diagrams ....till the end....i didnt even notice fatin walk pass me was so into tat paper...urgh i jus hope i pass i will really cry if i don ok....urgh...k gtg n brush up on DDI...as in study ok nt take a broom n sweep.......

Happy Birthday to my anni Shanthy!

k today wen for a movie wit my frien....bourne ultimatum.....was ok but boring to me haha cos i neva saw the before film so was kinda confused....but my frien was watchin it so intently tat i was like uhm ok .....im nt sayin anything look on my face...almost dozed off haha...then wen to play pool ok i noe im nt good at the game i suck at it .....hey atleast im tryin ok....u idiot haha tell im hopeless at the game duh i told u before playin tat im nt gd .....u bodoh ......haha but had lots of fun....well time to head back to my books thurs got OOAD exam....but i wonder hw im gonna study wit a monkey who makes lots of noise haiz......god do me a favour....pls send tis monkey bac to camp i beg u.....plsssssssssssssssssssssss......thank you.......


Happy Birthday to Venukanna

Today was "E" day as exams day or doomsday as i like to call it. My first paper Network Technology well it was ok thank god not so bad then i had expected....well studyin till 3am was a blessing after all....but the result me getting gastric for nt eating whoopee....woah was in pain doin the paper nt a gd time to come la mr gastric....u wan to come ah come after exam can....pls...ok im goin bonkers here haha rajes stop tokin to urself la haha....well nw hv to concentrate on ooad haiz diagrams diagrams and more diagrams nt my kind of thing......but no choice la have to do .....who the hell created a thing called exams ah gonna get it from me idiot....

oh ya to add on....everyone

JIA YOU!!!

k tmr i hv network technology exams and im trying to study but to i cant thxs to one idiotic monkey who think his the only one in the hs hey idiot stop makin noise ok ppl need to study ok if u wan go to a club la bodoh

anyway gd luck to all

wheee today notin much jus preparing myself for doomsday aka exams haha was writing notes and organising notes to study and ya wen for med appt....urgh hate hospitals but got so many cute baby's hahaha......miss sch and my gal friens and i hate to admit it but i miss u too daniel u n ur stupid nonsense u always say haha...really miss my classmates haizz....well anyway to my class gd luck in ur preparation for exams and gd luck in exams

Well yday wen to a concert wit my sis her church people were performing it was damn nice....the kids dance very well .....and one of the aunty brought a baby she was so adorable and cute awww i carried her in my arms she was so light and cute and she gave a sweet little smile wen she was in my arms and lay on me and was starring at the sequins on my blouse and giving cute sounds its so long since i hold a baby in my arms haha she so ccccccccccute haha......haiz.....if i ever get married i really wish i had ute little baby girl haha....hey anyone can wish rite

Have not been updatin my blog for quite sumtime as i was bz wit projects and common test well basically hv not been having a great week at all i hate it like hell it was torture tryin to study for common test and do my AIM project which is nt working urgh is it jus me oh is it jus that my projects are jus nt goin well this term....im damn upset about my AIM Project....cos im good at flash since ITE and wen i got tis project i was kinda scared as it seem difficult at first but as soon as i started it it was nice and it was goin well until one part jus doesnt seem to work urgh hate tis.....nw gonna concentrate on exams....and strive to do well in it.......wish me luck.....

Thxs to faekah,fatin, liza,xiujuan,zack,zee and muitong for helpin me today thxs guys

Ok today we my group and I presented our network technology project it was damn hard cos the lecturer ask us tough questions but we manage to ans him somehow......nxt would be my networking test at 1pm........i hope i can do it.....pls god help me.....thxs to peiyi's group for helping us out and thxs to my friens and loosu....for being there


God bless u guys!!!!!

haiz today wasnt exactly a great day for me had project demo n test which did go tat well for me haiz ....well there is one gd thing in tis my bro is hm for his bday tmr whoohoo goin out to eat after sch yippeee...miss the monkey alot haha........haiz miss the peace and quiet life tis days

Well today send my bro to pulau tekong damn startin of the journey was nice....mum dad granma all tokin n everything jokin all......eventually reality strike...muru wont be bac n i will be an only child for a few wks...damn hate to admit it but i miss the monkey alot .....miss scolding him....i noe its weird to miss things like tat but hey im a typical sister.......i cant help it.......oh ya the guys in the army kinda cute nt bad haha.......mum n me look look......hehe.......wen i was abt to leave guess who i saw.......karthik(joe)....haha he was waving at me hehe....cant believe i will c him there though.......surprise surprise........

K latest update..so called la...haha...entrepreneur project is over,finished adios ah haha whooohoo....well still gt another project to do n demo haiz im kinda worried presentin im ok but still am nervous la.....haha today was major stress i forgot tat i had an equiz today thank god it was open bk if nt die.....haha........i did well for tat n im glad abt it seriously .....need to prepare for common test and exam soon....i hope and pray i can make it...really stress my self too much tis term haiz

damn freaking exhausted .....i really really need a break frm sch urgh ....im beginning to hate sc tis days cos of exams common test and projects.......y do hey hv to stress us up n give us sleepless nites ....and days where we don feel hungry at all.....woah my parents plus granma are damn worried abt me tis days cos im cumin hm damn tired n sleepin early sumtimes without dinner.......(loosu if u read tis pls ignore k....its nt true....hehe).....anyway cumin bac to the point .... I HATE SCH......but im gonna do my best n strive for it no matter wat.....nt gonna let anything bring me dwn.......thxs to faekah,fatin,liza,my sis priya, and loosu.....for being there for me when i needed them most n wen i was dwn....thxs guys and luv u alot........

woah bz week ahead haha....wow today had acl practical at first wasnt sure what to do at all

after the teacher explanation...i had a slight idea on wat to do haha.....but on 20 mins to do the

test man was tat too fast haha...seriously too fast...well nw gotta concentrate on submitting

several projects .....woah major stress ahead haha....well thxs to my besties my sis n loosu

lol....for supporting me all the way and exams is like around the corner i hope i can make it.....

wanna do degree in psychology....my fav......haiz god pls be wit me all the way

i don understand wat i did to deserve such a punishment
from u......
i swear to god yet u don seem to believe me is tis hw much trust u hv
in me.....
no matter wat i say no matter wat i do u wont get it .......
ppl sayin all kinds of things ....i don wish to hear....
pls believe me n trust me

i swear i didnt do such a thing, i swear upon god and my mum i didnt do such a thing

but u don believe me .......

what did i do to deserve tis ?????

ok sch is kinda gettin bz for me and im kinda tired tis days forcing myself to stay awake

so many test, exams, project deadline n presentation.....

urgh.....i need a break.....feel so stressed n fed up....

sumtimes feel like crying......



y do ppl say things without realising hw a person feel

so upsetting .......y do u hv to do tis .....

i guess the worst times are here we jus hv

go through it one at a time i guess

tmr got ooad test kinda prepared but so tired also haha

still got so many test to go i hope i can make it ......

so many things to do ....yet so little time ....

sumtimes i ask myself one question ......

y me????????

thxs to my friens n sis n loosu...

haha for supportin me all the way

Wat a tiring week i had yesterday had a sudden infocom security presentation which didnt go

well as i tot....haiz but then we did our best n put in effort in our research n we are glad abt tat...

today we had another presentation techno market place report....was kinda nervous abt it...all of

us were cos we were nt so sure if we can make it wit our tokin but guess wat our worries were

for notin everyone was impressed wit our presentation... phew ......tats abt it i hope our other

presentation goes as well as it did today....

sch has started again ....and im aready exhausted

but im sure am glad to c my friens again.....haha

and liza being bullied by nenek aka fatin haha

tats a joyful sight....wow jus got a new project yday

n was damn freaking stressed up abt it ....but im gona

do my best for it ...n push myself to the limit.....nt end of the world ah

pls ah.....haha...well gd luck to my friens n classmates to exams test n projects

jia you!!!!

Atlast got time to write my blog, miss ya hahaha.....

well foremost, had common test tis week rad

was ok nt bad but DDI alamak can die sial....aiyo....

i was expecting rad to be tough eventually it

was the opposite....haiz.....thxs to faekah liza fatin .....

for being there wen i need them n my sis n

loosu .....trying to boost up my confidence level which

i don hv haha im nt surprised haha.....well

im gonna do well in my exams n other quiz to make up for yday test.....


Happy Bday To My Little Bro Syukri!!


Smile Always(",)
Rajes

well today was kinda bz .....followed granma to tekka n ate lunch there n bought market things....
then wen to meet a close frien of mine and go for lunch.....n window shoppin haha.....

then came home n was online updating my friendster....n updatin my blog....soon gonna start on

my revision on rad n ddi.....wow holidays seems to be my bz days......but yet i got through it thxs

to my friens.....haha.....thxs ppl

wat a boring day.....whole day notin to do jus study ddi for a while.....

then tok to fatin ......n tag blogs....n chat wit my sis....

then i had class for rad n i did understand today lesson haha weird haha

Look i didnt mean to hurt u tis way alrite

u noe since the begining tat im like n i told u so

so y are u avoiding eventhough i told sry umpteen times

wat did i do to deserve tis ........y r u hurting me tis way

pls don do tis.....u don noe hw much its hurting me.....

and hw much im controlling my tears

haiz stress like hell hv to study for common test....which isnt really

exciting .....eventhough its holiday .....we don seem to be resting.....urgh hate

tis....thank god to some friens of mine im still sane haiz....a certain someone told me

tat goin overseases for a mth....damn no one to torture nor bully for a

mth....aiyo....veri bad sial....haiz.....but gona miss the person though...haiz



PS: Still miss mummy!

Life is full of unpredictable things

Wen u are down n low

Something nice n sweet comes ur way

make u happy and all smiles

but there comes a times wen u one more

then it givs u jus cant ask cos .......it may nt be the answer u expect

it may nt be the type of feelin u can take....

I noe wat it is and im ignoring it....

cos of one thing.....HURT

haiz mum left for india yday .....feel so lonely without her mum faster come hm la veri boring haiz ........

hmm holidays hv started as well as projects and revision for common test wow

my holidays are packed wit fun yippee haha wow ......well am gonna try n fin tis projects all

and study my test all am gonna do beta tis term .......haiz its gona be boring but a useful time

also........



And Happy Bday to menaga may all ur wishes cum true!!!

hate my day today it sux....first of all i hv to do retest for networking which i study damn hard for urgh.....feel like crying.....3rdly a particular person isnt happy wit me so he doesnt wish to see my bday pics and i don giv a damn abt it......i mean its his lost nt mine anyway.....one gd thing abt today was gettin my bday pics all of it was nice....and having gd friens like fatin faekah liza n a close frien of mine mr poda hehe .......thxs guys

Haiz wat a day ......n wat a week im gonna hv tue wed thurs gt test n presentation....wow hv to endure it man ....todays flash test aint easy but manage it sumhow wit liza n muitong coaching me thxs gals......

oh ya today is my bestie faekah's bday ......zack bought a cake n surprised her.....haha.....n i saw her cry .....im so glad she is happy today hope u are happy always gal

at last i hv time to update my blog after so long....well sat i celebrated my 21st bday at CSC and it was a great success the mc was great the dj was super, games was gd.....and the ppl who were there were great n sporting haha....i was abit nervous on hw it was gonna be but my worries were all for noting haha...my friens cuz aunty uncle dad bro n mum n even mua rock the dance floor whoo hoo haha....it ended at 12 am n i gt hm at 1am n was eagerly unwrapping my gifts so many haha thxs alot for makin tat day a special one for me n thxs for the gifts i really luv them all

Urgh im aready exhausted n u hv to go n make me pissed off u @#$%@#$ ........oh ya u luv to call me tat n wat else wait let me remember oh ya stupid....rite.....shw ur temper at me for wat wen i didnt do anything all i had on my face was a tired look ....n u said i hv sour face like duh....u don noe me well.......i hate u forever n eva ......no matter wateva anyone says i still hate get
I HATE U!!!


Pissed Off Man!!!

Nt Smiling

Rajes

wow wat a week damn tiring.....frm wed to thurs all the way we havin test test n more test aiyo can mati liao haha....so stress until i gt fever n sore throat...party preparation is goin well gt everything puttin final touches to it.......aiyo tis days hvin a headaches almost everyday....which seem irritating.....i will get mood out if i hv tat which is nt gd in a sense cos if anyone tokin to me at tat time will get it i think u noe wat i mean....yup in few more hrs im gonna be 21 new me new resposiblities freedom hmm ....lets c hw it goes first..haha....cant believe im an adult aready.......wow.......

haha....sch wk project all aiyo so headache la....so many wk to do no energy sum more....today

the weather was like killin us so hot sial.....haha.....thank god later in the noon strong wind came

wow coolin haiz.....durin break...faekah took pics of us together nt bet faekah can be a gd

photographer.....haha u go gal.....veri tired today heres the pics for your eyes....

Smile Always(",)
Rajes

haiz wen to see doc today .....n doc said im ok i will survive haha....stress wit plannin my bday mus do tis do tat aiyo where i gt time i mostly spent my life in sch tis days aiyo can mati......haha...n still can laugh abt it.....n nw havin a bad headache thxs to tis weather urgh.....too many assignments n projects....hw im gona handle it....wow....major prob man....well jia you frm nw......


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Wow am super exhausted haha well wen to watch movie with my friens faekah zack n daniel ( Mr What since he always luv to say What hehe) anyway wen to watch spiderman 3 its a die die must watch movie.....it was so nice haiz.....n it was fun watchin wit ur closest friens.....thxs guys i really enjoyed it..... oh ya n later we wen to vivo city faekah zack n daniel wen to eat while i wen to meet my dear bro....prateep....n had surprise there..yup i met menaga sumi mani bawani joe there they had a misunderstandin wit me.....n well im glad its all cleared up especially wit joe n menaga.....i made some mistakes too....n really am sry abt it....so ya......n nw we are bac together i pray theres no more misunderstanding btw us.......

Smile Always (",)
Rajes

haiz so tired today .......exhausted later goin tekka wit mum .....woke up late today n rush to sch gettin wet in the rain...so sleepy....life can be so sad at times due to certain ppl n their scarstic remarks which hurts us all the time....hate tis alot....y do i feel suffocated....hmm

Happy 21st b'day to Karthik!!!

Smile always(",)
Rajes

on days like tis u really wish tat u were hm in ur room n jus stay there safe frm the outside world....im beginning to get really angry over certain ppl who really are hurting me .....n over guys who treat their gfs like some kinda of dirt....idiots they don realise the pain we have feelings n all.....all they care abt is their selfish selfs i hope guys rot in hell....urgh u digust me....b'day prep is goin well....sis is excited abt my bday haha don wry sis still time la....haha....today wen to meet AJ to get my vcd n as usual i was late .....but he didnt say anything abt tat but ask one thing "uhm where is my card" i was like oops i forgot n he said nvm send it to me la.....phew! thank god he nt angry....haha ....then wen to toa payoh n bought invite cards n ate my lunch there alone haiz....sad but used to it......at least u can sit dwn n think abt certain things in life n i did alot of stuff n later i wen to meet faekah at yck mrt to get the database bk but was late also...haiz wen we wen to sch to get the bk guess wat the bk was nt in yet....urgh waste our time man......frust sial waste our time.....haiz im exhausted ......well atleast i wasnt bored...haha tats the main thing here....


Smile Always(",)
Rajes

wat a week i had....was bz in sch ....so many projects lessons and stuff but i did enjoy cos tues wen out wit my friens faekah n fatin had dinner at kfc had the melts......n wen to amk hub faekah bought earrings cute for her......haha.....n fri it was my mum b'day n i fin late on tat day summore urgh hate tat aft sch had to rush to shops before it closed n got her a handbag....n she carried it yday wen we wen out for dinner tat was nice haha ......but dad as usual condemn me n my bro also join me....urgh hate them to the max!!!......well my bday is nearing but i don feel the excitement ......y i don noe.....but i noe one wish im gonna make i wish everyone i noe are happy n well tats all.......

Smile Always(",)
Rajes

wow ......wat a week in i had......in sch they giv so many project tat i lost track on hw many i hv to do.....as for my life....i really miss this person who i truly luv alot....jus gotten the guts to tok abt it......nt easy being single......but i neva wen on wit him weird huh...haha i don tink so....if u luv someone no matter u are att anot u will still luv him...his nt wit me nw but tears do cum to my eyes wen i tink of him n the memories i had wit him....it was beautiful sumtimes i feel tat his wit me wherever i am .....yday saw my sis n her bf walkin towards me wen i saw tat i tot i saw him n me walkin n wit pain i turn away......i really do luv him alot if there is a chance n he cums bac im still there no matter wat .....ppl say if im crazy or mad ......cos i noe he does luv me....tats wat i noe


Smile always (",)
rajes

First day of sch today was so happy to see my friens n my classmates.....haha.....i pass them my bday invites n fatin kept sayin "its rajes wedding la" haha fatin if my weddin the card more nicer la....haha.....was lookin at all the new students in my sch ehem plus guys haha.....hey cant help it la hehe.....then aft sch met my cu ask her hw was her day n all n wen hm .....ah at hm wow tats a frustrating tot.....dad condeming me as usual abt my studies ...... n me obviously n comparing me wit my idiot bro....urgh i hate tat since small he condemns me no matter hw gd i am in certain things no praise at all.....haiz i guess tats hw a gals life is suppose to be....haiz.....but hey i luv sch alot n am planning to be there always i prefer there to sch tis days.....hmm.......



Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Wow aft so long im writing in my blog n to those who kept tellin me to update it

well here it is n frm nw onwards im gonna update it often.....well during the holidays was bored

miz my classmates n sch alot....n ya i did hv some sad moments too which i don wish to reveal

for nw ....as it hurts....but i will like to thank tis ppl who were there wen i need them most faekah

fatin priya n karthik ( its AJ fatin no worries dn get confused) lol thxs guys for being there for

me.....and yes during the holidays was preparing for my 21st bday party everything is set.....n

ready to go ......haha....nt me la....haha....tmr is tamil new year i totally forgot abt it thxs for

reminding me karthik haha n 4 mths since my granma passed away........i really miss her

alot.....pathi i luv n miss u...wish u were wit me to celebrate my bday.....since im the first

granchild to celebrate 21st bday.....n u are nt here to see it......haiz....oh well......tats abt it....oh ya

happy new year to all indians out there.....



Smile Always(",)
Rajes

Wow after so long im writing in my blog....came bac frm aus perth yday had a great time there

Upon reachin there it was damn cold 7 degree celcious....brrr...haha....then wen to my cuz hs

mum cook there....then wen to temple wow it was peaceful.....haiz.....oh ya i rode a horse feed

kangaroo sheep cow goat hehe.....thank god neva drop of the horse....then wen to

pinnacles,fermantle oh ya n shopping ......but i didnt buy much my bro did though haha.......alot

of stuff.......haiz.....major shopper man.....but overall i enjoyed the peace n tranquility

there....haiz....i cant believe im bac in choatic singapore....haha


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Makin a decision in life is sumthing normal to everyone

but it may effect others also oni thing is in my case it will oni effect me pretty badly

i don hv a choice in tis case.....i don wan ppl to tink

im such a person .....bt i especailly dn wan

my beastie to tink im like tat in the near future.....

i dn noe if its gonna hurt me anot bt i hope

others will be happy abt it.....i think they will be....lol


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

haiz.....its jus doesnt seem to stop.....one prob ends another pops out frm nwhere....haiz...
wat did i do to deserve tis all i did was wen out wit my bestie bf who is also my close frien...n i told her before i wen so did he tat we were meetin up n stuff.....n we did had fun...though....wen i gt bac hm i receive a call frm him tellin me the my frien was upset abt it.....i ask sumi n she told me my bestie was upset wit me cause i neva told her earlier ...n i told her i was bz in the mornin n by the time i fin it was time for me to get ready n stuff bt i msg her before i left....n i told sumi tat atleast i did told her even though it was late....n i even ask twice if i should meet him anot...n if u don i won meet at all....she made me so upset....i noe her for 7 yrs .....n tis is hw much trust she has in me is it.....wat did i do.....he is also my frien wats wrg in goin out wit him.....if u told me u don like then fine i wouldnt even hv gone u didnt even say anything.....urgh....all i can say is tat u hurt me badly...n i don noe if i can forgive n forget abt tis ...... i jus cant believe u are like tat...best part u don even wan to tok to me at all....im fine wit it...all i noe is i didnt do anything wrg even if it my bf n u wen out wit him i dn mind cause i trust him n i trust u......i hope tis ans ur question di....


Nt Smiling :(
Rajes

PLs stop asking me the same question......i don noe if im celebrating.....my b'day...n i don noe if my parents are gonna celebrate anot.......ok jus pls don ask me anything......being 21 is jus a normal thing to me alrite...SO IM GONNA CELEBRATE IT ON MY OWN....HATE BEING 21....



sMILE aLWAYS(",)
rAJES

urgh hate u to the core since 12 yrs old all u did was condemn me all the way...embarrassed me everywhere u go .......for tat reason i threw mud all over u face n came in top in PSLE....U called me STUPID , U CALLED ME A BASTARD WAT OTHER NAME U HV FOR MA AH.....IM SICK N TIRED OF UR NONSENSE....IM CONTROLLING MY ANGER CAUSE OF MUM......TO ME U HV BEEN DEAD FOR 8 YRS......GO TO HELL!!! URGH I HATE U!!! : (



smILE aLWAYS (",)
rAJES

Haiz holiday started but its so boring wen out yesterday wit menaga n sumi.....was so excited to meet them n rush as fast possible to meet them but....i felt as if my hopes drop in the pit of no return....wen i saw R.......urgh...i told sumi tat i was so happy to meet u guys but wen i saw her i felt upset n she was said she had no choice cause she followed them....haiz...first time i felt upset n regret in meeting them i wonder y.....menaga was complaining abt sumthing then i told her beta dn be stubborn or else its gonna affect ur life....she jus said look who is toking haha....ya she is rite i am stubborn bt im nt attached....haiz really hurt me like hell....wen i said i dn wan a guy they all like yaya rite wateva....y doesnt anyone undertand me for once....wat do u all noe abt me hw i feel wat i wen through....u all think its easy bt its isnt alrite....i like the way i am.....k i admit it im scared to go in a relationship....aft wat happ....i cant take another step n i don wish too in 2 more yrs i wont be around.....so i don see y i mus hv a guy....no one seems to understand me tis days nt even my friens....ah wat the heck i cant be bothered wat eva u guys one to say go ahead....its nt gonna hurt me anymore...

Happy Birthday to my close friens Ramesh Zack Meitong and Peiyi!!

Smile Always(",)
Rajes

Yippee Exams are over!!! woohoo....can wait to enjoy my holidays n rest my brain haha...

wonder wat am i gonna do....during the break....hmmm.....cant think nw

sian haha

but gonna miss my class n friens haiz....


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Hmm life taking a new twist tis days....haha....fascinatingly i hv gt notin to say for this....
Exams are nxt week cant wait for it to be over.....i really wanna pass.....really work hard tis term....wishing my friends n class all the best for their exams......watelse....hmm....haiz...decided to hv no guys in my life....y?.....a reason i don wish to disclose nw.....wen i told ppl i don wanna be in a relationship....they say rather then tat dn tok to guys...so alrite i wont tok to them....haha....haiz....i don noe wat to say.....i didnt noe tat tokin to guy means tat we wan a guy....i tok to guys to make friens wit them i really wish ......i noe wat i am doin for my life... help me GOD....i really need u nw badly.....


Smile Always(",)
Rajes

I always say to my friends that im happy being single plus available and stuff...in fact i feel free without any guy ......except for my guy friens la haha.....bt then eventhough i do say that my heart doesnt seem to agree wit me .....y....i hv no idea.....bt to me my old wounds are still fresh in my heart it doesnt seem to heal even if it does....i don think i will hv the guts to be in a relationship eva.....ya it was painful....being wit my sch friens and my friens outside i feel safe and happy wit them.....bt there will cum a time where they will hv their own life....then wat am i gonna do...? haha ....u noe wat i hv no idea....i guess i will neva noe the ans till happen huh....hmm will see.....for nw lets see where life takes me....i jus wanna enjoy the moments i hv wit them...nw i realise tat wat menaga said was true we friens cant always be wit u.....we will hv our own life soon...so get a life get a guy....haha i was angry wen she said tat.....bt wen i think abt tat nw.......i hv notin to say .....im blank out.....haiz......god pls giv me the strength to handle any probs or any hurt in me.....thxs


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

9 feb 2007

Yippee common test is over woohoo..... wen out wit my best friend and my close friends today at parkway parade....it was fun.....oh ya lol gt my o level result wasnt gd i oni pass eng....haha frm tis i noe one thing my strongest subject is english.....nw i noe y the eng teachers luv me .....haha jokin anyway....i dn mind abt the results cause i wanted to giv it a try before anything happens....i dont want to regret nt doin it in my later yrs.....anyway i got poly to wk hard on and i gonna put my heart and soul to it....exams.....are round the corner gonna prepare for it n strive for it......gd luck to my class mates.....jia you lol

Smile Always(",)
Rajes