at last i hv time to update my blog after so long....well sat i celebrated my 21st bday at CSC and it was a great success the mc was great the dj was super, games was gd.....and the ppl who were there were great n sporting haha....i was abit nervous on hw it was gonna be but my worries were all for noting haha...my friens cuz aunty uncle dad bro n mum n even mua rock the dance floor whoo hoo haha....it ended at 12 am n i gt hm at 1am n was eagerly unwrapping my gifts so many haha thxs alot for makin tat day a special one for me n thxs for the gifts i really luv them all

Urgh im aready exhausted n u hv to go n make me pissed off u @#$%@#$ ........oh ya u luv to call me tat n wat else wait let me remember oh ya stupid....rite.....shw ur temper at me for wat wen i didnt do anything all i had on my face was a tired look ....n u said i hv sour face like duh....u don noe me well.......i hate u forever n eva ......no matter wateva anyone says i still hate get
I HATE U!!!


Pissed Off Man!!!

Nt Smiling

Rajes

wow wat a week damn tiring.....frm wed to thurs all the way we havin test test n more test aiyo can mati liao haha....so stress until i gt fever n sore throat...party preparation is goin well gt everything puttin final touches to it.......aiyo tis days hvin a headaches almost everyday....which seem irritating.....i will get mood out if i hv tat which is nt gd in a sense cos if anyone tokin to me at tat time will get it i think u noe wat i mean....yup in few more hrs im gonna be 21 new me new resposiblities freedom hmm ....lets c hw it goes first..haha....cant believe im an adult aready.......wow.......

haha....sch wk project all aiyo so headache la....so many wk to do no energy sum more....today

the weather was like killin us so hot sial.....haha.....thank god later in the noon strong wind came

wow coolin haiz.....durin break...faekah took pics of us together nt bet faekah can be a gd

photographer.....haha u go gal.....veri tired today heres the pics for your eyes....

Smile Always(",)
Rajes

haiz wen to see doc today .....n doc said im ok i will survive haha....stress wit plannin my bday mus do tis do tat aiyo where i gt time i mostly spent my life in sch tis days aiyo can mati......haha...n still can laugh abt it.....n nw havin a bad headache thxs to tis weather urgh.....too many assignments n projects....hw im gona handle it....wow....major prob man....well jia you frm nw......


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Rajes

Wow am super exhausted haha well wen to watch movie with my friens faekah zack n daniel ( Mr What since he always luv to say What hehe) anyway wen to watch spiderman 3 its a die die must watch movie.....it was so nice haiz.....n it was fun watchin wit ur closest friens.....thxs guys i really enjoyed it..... oh ya n later we wen to vivo city faekah zack n daniel wen to eat while i wen to meet my dear bro....prateep....n had surprise there..yup i met menaga sumi mani bawani joe there they had a misunderstandin wit me.....n well im glad its all cleared up especially wit joe n menaga.....i made some mistakes too....n really am sry abt it....so ya......n nw we are bac together i pray theres no more misunderstanding btw us.......

Smile Always (",)
Rajes

haiz so tired today .......exhausted later goin tekka wit mum .....woke up late today n rush to sch gettin wet in the rain...so sleepy....life can be so sad at times due to certain ppl n their scarstic remarks which hurts us all the time....hate tis alot....y do i feel suffocated....hmm

Happy 21st b'day to Karthik!!!

Smile always(",)
Rajes

on days like tis u really wish tat u were hm in ur room n jus stay there safe frm the outside world....im beginning to get really angry over certain ppl who really are hurting me .....n over guys who treat their gfs like some kinda of dirt....idiots they don realise the pain we have feelings n all.....all they care abt is their selfish selfs i hope guys rot in hell....urgh u digust me....b'day prep is goin well....sis is excited abt my bday haha don wry sis still time la....haha....today wen to meet AJ to get my vcd n as usual i was late .....but he didnt say anything abt tat but ask one thing "uhm where is my card" i was like oops i forgot n he said nvm send it to me la.....phew! thank god he nt angry....haha ....then wen to toa payoh n bought invite cards n ate my lunch there alone haiz....sad but used to it......at least u can sit dwn n think abt certain things in life n i did alot of stuff n later i wen to meet faekah at yck mrt to get the database bk but was late also...haiz wen we wen to sch to get the bk guess wat the bk was nt in yet....urgh waste our time man......frust sial waste our time.....haiz im exhausted ......well atleast i wasnt bored...haha tats the main thing here....


Smile Always(",)
Rajes

wat a week i had....was bz in sch ....so many projects lessons and stuff but i did enjoy cos tues wen out wit my friens faekah n fatin had dinner at kfc had the melts......n wen to amk hub faekah bought earrings cute for her......haha.....n fri it was my mum b'day n i fin late on tat day summore urgh hate tat aft sch had to rush to shops before it closed n got her a handbag....n she carried it yday wen we wen out for dinner tat was nice haha ......but dad as usual condemn me n my bro also join me....urgh hate them to the max!!!......well my bday is nearing but i don feel the excitement ......y i don noe.....but i noe one wish im gonna make i wish everyone i noe are happy n well tats all.......

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Rajes

wow ......wat a week in i had......in sch they giv so many project tat i lost track on hw many i hv to do.....as for my life....i really miss this person who i truly luv alot....jus gotten the guts to tok abt it......nt easy being single......but i neva wen on wit him weird huh...haha i don tink so....if u luv someone no matter u are att anot u will still luv him...his nt wit me nw but tears do cum to my eyes wen i tink of him n the memories i had wit him....it was beautiful sumtimes i feel tat his wit me wherever i am .....yday saw my sis n her bf walkin towards me wen i saw tat i tot i saw him n me walkin n wit pain i turn away......i really do luv him alot if there is a chance n he cums bac im still there no matter wat .....ppl say if im crazy or mad ......cos i noe he does luv me....tats wat i noe


Smile always (",)
rajes

First day of sch today was so happy to see my friens n my classmates.....haha.....i pass them my bday invites n fatin kept sayin "its rajes wedding la" haha fatin if my weddin the card more nicer la....haha.....was lookin at all the new students in my sch ehem plus guys haha.....hey cant help it la hehe.....then aft sch met my cu ask her hw was her day n all n wen hm .....ah at hm wow tats a frustrating tot.....dad condeming me as usual abt my studies ...... n me obviously n comparing me wit my idiot bro....urgh i hate tat since small he condemns me no matter hw gd i am in certain things no praise at all.....haiz i guess tats hw a gals life is suppose to be....haiz.....but hey i luv sch alot n am planning to be there always i prefer there to sch tis days.....hmm.......



Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Wow aft so long im writing in my blog n to those who kept tellin me to update it

well here it is n frm nw onwards im gonna update it often.....well during the holidays was bored

miz my classmates n sch alot....n ya i did hv some sad moments too which i don wish to reveal

for nw ....as it hurts....but i will like to thank tis ppl who were there wen i need them most faekah

fatin priya n karthik ( its AJ fatin no worries dn get confused) lol thxs guys for being there for

me.....and yes during the holidays was preparing for my 21st bday party everything is set.....n

ready to go ......haha....nt me la....haha....tmr is tamil new year i totally forgot abt it thxs for

reminding me karthik haha n 4 mths since my granma passed away........i really miss her

alot.....pathi i luv n miss u...wish u were wit me to celebrate my bday.....since im the first

granchild to celebrate 21st bday.....n u are nt here to see it......haiz....oh well......tats abt it....oh ya

happy new year to all indians out there.....



Smile Always(",)
Rajes

Wow after so long im writing in my blog....came bac frm aus perth yday had a great time there

Upon reachin there it was damn cold 7 degree celcious....brrr...haha....then wen to my cuz hs

mum cook there....then wen to temple wow it was peaceful.....haiz.....oh ya i rode a horse feed

kangaroo sheep cow goat hehe.....thank god neva drop of the horse....then wen to

pinnacles,fermantle oh ya n shopping ......but i didnt buy much my bro did though haha.......alot

of stuff.......haiz.....major shopper man.....but overall i enjoyed the peace n tranquility

there....haiz....i cant believe im bac in choatic singapore....haha


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

Makin a decision in life is sumthing normal to everyone

but it may effect others also oni thing is in my case it will oni effect me pretty badly

i don hv a choice in tis case.....i don wan ppl to tink

im such a person .....bt i especailly dn wan

my beastie to tink im like tat in the near future.....

i dn noe if its gonna hurt me anot bt i hope

others will be happy abt it.....i think they will be....lol


Smile Always (",)
Rajes

haiz.....its jus doesnt seem to stop.....one prob ends another pops out frm nwhere....haiz...
wat did i do to deserve tis all i did was wen out wit my bestie bf who is also my close frien...n i told her before i wen so did he tat we were meetin up n stuff.....n we did had fun...though....wen i gt bac hm i receive a call frm him tellin me the my frien was upset abt it.....i ask sumi n she told me my bestie was upset wit me cause i neva told her earlier ...n i told her i was bz in the mornin n by the time i fin it was time for me to get ready n stuff bt i msg her before i left....n i told sumi tat atleast i did told her even though it was late....n i even ask twice if i should meet him anot...n if u don i won meet at all....she made me so upset....i noe her for 7 yrs .....n tis is hw much trust she has in me is it.....wat did i do.....he is also my frien wats wrg in goin out wit him.....if u told me u don like then fine i wouldnt even hv gone u didnt even say anything.....urgh....all i can say is tat u hurt me badly...n i don noe if i can forgive n forget abt tis ...... i jus cant believe u are like tat...best part u don even wan to tok to me at all....im fine wit it...all i noe is i didnt do anything wrg even if it my bf n u wen out wit him i dn mind cause i trust him n i trust u......i hope tis ans ur question di....


Nt Smiling :(
Rajes

PLs stop asking me the same question......i don noe if im celebrating.....my b'day...n i don noe if my parents are gonna celebrate anot.......ok jus pls don ask me anything......being 21 is jus a normal thing to me alrite...SO IM GONNA CELEBRATE IT ON MY OWN....HATE BEING 21....



sMILE aLWAYS(",)
rAJES

urgh hate u to the core since 12 yrs old all u did was condemn me all the way...embarrassed me everywhere u go .......for tat reason i threw mud all over u face n came in top in PSLE....U called me STUPID , U CALLED ME A BASTARD WAT OTHER NAME U HV FOR MA AH.....IM SICK N TIRED OF UR NONSENSE....IM CONTROLLING MY ANGER CAUSE OF MUM......TO ME U HV BEEN DEAD FOR 8 YRS......GO TO HELL!!! URGH I HATE U!!! : (



smILE aLWAYS (",)
rAJES

Haiz holiday started but its so boring wen out yesterday wit menaga n sumi.....was so excited to meet them n rush as fast possible to meet them but....i felt as if my hopes drop in the pit of no return....wen i saw R.......urgh...i told sumi tat i was so happy to meet u guys but wen i saw her i felt upset n she was said she had no choice cause she followed them....haiz...first time i felt upset n regret in meeting them i wonder y.....menaga was complaining abt sumthing then i told her beta dn be stubborn or else its gonna affect ur life....she jus said look who is toking haha....ya she is rite i am stubborn bt im nt attached....haiz really hurt me like hell....wen i said i dn wan a guy they all like yaya rite wateva....y doesnt anyone undertand me for once....wat do u all noe abt me hw i feel wat i wen through....u all think its easy bt its isnt alrite....i like the way i am.....k i admit it im scared to go in a relationship....aft wat happ....i cant take another step n i don wish too in 2 more yrs i wont be around.....so i don see y i mus hv a guy....no one seems to understand me tis days nt even my friens....ah wat the heck i cant be bothered wat eva u guys one to say go ahead....its nt gonna hurt me anymore...

Happy Birthday to my close friens Ramesh Zack Meitong and Peiyi!!

Smile Always(",)
Rajes

Yippee Exams are over!!! woohoo....can wait to enjoy my holidays n rest my brain haha...

wonder wat am i gonna do....during the break....hmmm.....cant think nw

sian haha

but gonna miss my class n friens haiz....


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Rajes

Hmm life taking a new twist tis days....haha....fascinatingly i hv gt notin to say for this....
Exams are nxt week cant wait for it to be over.....i really wanna pass.....really work hard tis term....wishing my friends n class all the best for their exams......watelse....hmm....haiz...decided to hv no guys in my life....y?.....a reason i don wish to disclose nw.....wen i told ppl i don wanna be in a relationship....they say rather then tat dn tok to guys...so alrite i wont tok to them....haha....haiz....i don noe wat to say.....i didnt noe tat tokin to guy means tat we wan a guy....i tok to guys to make friens wit them i really wish ......i noe wat i am doin for my life... help me GOD....i really need u nw badly.....


Smile Always(",)
Rajes